The Idea of Birth

As of right now I think the idea of birth is disgusting. It seems like it's a lot of work and it sounds extremely painful. Being on the woman end of the whole pregnancy shenanigans I do not think I will be willing to have children until I am truly ready for it. I want to make sure that I am finished with school, have a steady job and a husband before I decide to have children. I want to be sure that I am sure that I want to and am ready to bring a helpless child into a chaotic world. I do not want to have to bring a child into the world and not be able to care for it. As of right now, RIGHT THIS SECOND, i have a one year old nephew pulling at my arm trying to get me to go with him somewhere. Hes starting to whine and pull harder. He brought me to the living room and let go. From that little distraction there I don't think I can give a child all the attention it needs. I do not feel that i have the patience for that. Maybe later, way later, in my life but not anytime soon. My sister in law is pregnant right now. Its only been 2 months and she can't stand it. She never has an appetite and is very moody and nauseous a lot. I don't think I can deal with that for a long while neither haha. I love to eat. Well my final thought on birth as of right now is that it's a nasty process and i definitely do not see it as a miracle of life. There is a lot of science behind it.